Going Forward in Faith

I consider myself more spiritual than religious. I attend church, but argue the theories in my mind to determine what I actually believe. I do believe in God, but He doesn't fit any of the pigeon holes offered up by organized churches I've heard.

This past Sunday was T'giving and the sermon was about being thankful. The sermon included a story wherein ten lepers asked for healing. They were told to go see the priest, and were healed only after they set forth to do so. The minister expressed that they went forward in faith, being told they would be healed they believed it enough to move forward to the fulfillment of thier pleas. One man turned back to express his thanks and was rewarded with salvation. While all ten men were faithful and obedient, the one was risen to a greater level of happiness, contentment and freedom because of his gratitude.

So I'm reminded to be thankful. It's easy to forget that admidst bustle and frustrations of daily routines and schedules. It sometimes takes a conscious effort to stop mid-step and look around at the Chaos that is the Munsters and realize though I may be at my wits end over bickering, whining, tattling, complaining, talking back, defiance, aggression and irresponsibility, they Are. They Are healthy, happy, whole and with me. The realization of that could burst my heart with joy, the rest of the noise fades and time stops for a moment of peace. I fear that time flies too quickly and these Munsters grow so fast... taking the moment in and stopping time fights off the risk and fear of losing them to time. It's the only way I've learned how so far.

Then the minister asked the rhetorical question 'What does it mean for you?' and 'Do you know you're in a rut, and have to move forward to get out of it?' and that hit home. I've been putting off some ideas for fear they would not work, telling myself every reason under the sun why trying isn't worth my time. I'm now giving it a go and trying to keep faith that something good may come of moving forward. Wish me luck.

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