A new morning

And I feel hopeful.

When we started investigating adoption we looked at all our options - domestic vs international, private vs. public, infant vs. older child... we were originally against the idea of an international adoption because of the process and funds involved. I remember distinctly standing in the kitchen and opening a letter from an agency that provided service for adoption from China. I had agreed for them to send it to me because it was easier than arguing with them not to. Holding that letter I felt a feeling of "this is IT". IT. I went downstairs to Steve's office and told him how I felt and he agreed, China adoption was right, real, IT.

It's been a rough road... much harder than we ever anticipated. I'm not sure we would have started down this road had we seen the map, but here we are in the thick of things and I still feel IT. From the very beginning this journey has felt destined and destiny doesn't go away, it pushes and pulls me forward, sometimes with small nudges, sometimes with strong kicks to the ass. We really have no choice but to move forward, which ever way we're directed. If this is our daughter, we'll find our way to her and bring her home. If it's not, we'll find a way to pick ourselves up out of this ditch and get back on the road.

The sun is shining today.

N