Full to the Brim

That's how I feel. I have so many thoughts and stressers swimming around in my mind that I feel like I'm drowning. I've found myself forgetting things, which I don't usually do. I may forget to DO something in a moment, but I'll remember several times through the day, just not when it's practical to do it and at the end of the day it doesn't get done. That's how I usually forget. These last few days I have totally forgotten things. Big things, like calling Sears to come look at the dryer because it's not working right and has become one of The Stressers. It's like my mind is full and if I add something new, something old falls out. Picture a kiddie pool, water to the top, and a five year old cannon ball - the water needs to go somewhere.

Usually when I feel like this I write lists. I list everything I need to do. I usually organize and reorganize the lists, categorizing under times or days, or nature of task - ie phone call vs physical task, etc. I include things recently done so I can cross them off. To some extent I've been doing that, but a lot of The Balls up in the air are things I can't DO right now. In my head I've categorized them into Family, Adoption, Work, but it's not helping. I'm left feeling overwhelmed and daunted, foggy and disorganized, anxious and unprepared. I don't like it.

BUT, I'll leave you with a Tinkerbell funny. She's at the awkward stage where if she naps in the day, she's up all night, but easily falls asleep whenever she sits in her carseat after 3pm. Yesterday she slept on the way home from daycare. At 10pm I heard pittering down the stairs, the door creak open and a blonde head bob along the foot of my bed up to my bedside. She was wearing a new pj top and couldn't maneuver the buttons. I asked why she changed her top and she said "I was playing in the water and my shirt is all wet". Okay so it's not hysterically funny, but it was incredibly cute. Man I love that kid.