No call.

I waited till late this afternoon when I couldn't wait any more and emailed the agency. She wrote back saying they were reviewing the files and would call the Province later this month if there was a match for us. I have been talking with another mom who is also waiting for a match. Her family is "first" in line and was just missed back in December. We're actually fifth, not fourth. In reviewing some emails to confirm our place, I realized she wrote we had four families in front of us, which puts us fifth, not fourth. This mom wrote me this afternoon to say they received a call to tell them it was likely they'd have a match in this group of children. So I don't know what that means for us. Perhaps they have some families they know they will match, and some they know they will not and we're in the middle? I'm not feeling hopeful.

Actually at this point, I'd rather just know. Even if it meant waiting till the next batch. Typically groups of children come every three months so the next group will be presented end of May, beginning of June. Surely we'd be matched in that group? June's not that bad, right? We've been down this road before... settling for June.

SO maybe that's the approach - I set my sights on June and relax, assuming we're not going to be matched this month. The problem with that is we're just too close. I can't convince myself that we're that far out of luck - I mean fourth, fifth, out of ten? Those are pretty good odds. And this is how I set myself up for the falls.

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