We were talking the other day while we were driving - sometimes a dangerous prospect as many life-changing decisions have been made in the car including starting my business and adopting a child...
We were scoffing at the wait to receive Anna being two years or more. Steve said "You could get pregnant and have a child well before that time". So of course we had to revisit our choice to adopt versus having another child the "ol' fashioned way". (How incredibly blessed we are to have the choice - that fact is not lost on me.) There are many reasons we don't want to have another pregnancy and newborn stage - but they'd be over before the date that we'd receive Anna so would the short term be worth the long term? As much as I loved being pregnant, the thought of going down that road again scares me. If we DID get pregnant and have a baby, what happens to our adoption process? Is it one or the other? We are comfortable with four children, but not five (though we won't write off the possibility LOL). Bottom line, our child is waiting for us in China. In my heart, the thought of choosing not to adopt at this point is akin to abandoning that child again. I've seldom had such a feeling of simply knowing this is what we need to do.
So, with a sigh of relief we decided no pregnancy. We'll wait as long as we need to for the baby who seems to be pulling our heartstrings already.
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Well...if you change your mind I'll happily go through the "is it too early to test?", "should I test today?", and "do you think I should retest?" days beside you all over again! :D
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