Kicks

Steve and I have been married for nine and a half years... we've taken on big projects in that time, built a house, had kids young, had lots of kids, started and built businesses, international adoption, so I guess you could say we bring it on ourselves. It seems it's always a fight. We laugh and say "It's us against the world" but sometimes that laughter is hollow and forced. We're always fighting someone or something that seems formidable. We regularly say 'we'll just get through This and we'll be okay, it'll get better, it'll get easier' but the kicks keep coming. I'm not sure how much more of it I can take, to be honest. I'm not sure how many more fires I can put out, how many more fronts I can defend, how many more hoops I can jump. Just when we get ourselves picked up and brushed off something comes along to knock us back down. I'm being cryptic in part b/c I'm too exhausted to explain and describe and you don't want to know the ugly details anyway. All we want to do is create a family that is happy, healthy, warm and fed, build careers that are contributing, supportive and performed with integrity, a life together that is more notable for love, laughter and fun than stress and struggle... When do the good guys win?

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