I've been pretty bummed about the recent referral batch, which included Nov. 25-30, 2006. Lousy. More lousy is reports that people claiming "insider info" are saying this is the new norm, things are not going to speed up, in fact, limits on adoptions will decrease for 2008, not increase.
I used to be sure Anna was in China. I'm not so sure. She could be, we could still go, but I don't feel sure as I did before. I'm very concerned that things will continue to slow to a point where we just can't go... or that they'll stop altogether before we get there.
I once wrote that we'd wait as long as we could, feeling that abandoning our path to China would be abandoning her again. But what if there's no daughter for us in China? What if we naively wait all this time and we never get word of a child being matched to our family?
Today I called the gov't agency that manages adoptions in Nova Scotia. I asked again, just to be sure, if it was correct that we couldn't apply for international and domestic adoption at the same time. Policy has changed. We can wait on both lists!
SO what do we do now? We went with China in part because we felt certain there would be a child at the end of the road. With domestic, you apply, give a list of things you can and can't accept in a child, and wait to be matched to a child who needs a family... we felt we may wait forever without being matched... But now that seems possible of China too.
Bottom line, we're going to start the process. We'll meet with a worker and see what our options are with respect to domestic adoption, and decide whether to add our name to that list.
I still feel we need to adopt, we're meant to find Someone... but maybe she's closer than half the world and three years away?
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