The calls have started. So far, one family with a November 7th LID has been included, no info beyond that number. Likely that IS the cutoff date, giving us 6 days matched.
I wish I could forget that we're waiting. The time is going to pass, regardless of whether I'm reading rumours, guessing timelines or making pretend plans. Time flies. I don't think it's the wait that bothers me so much - if someone could come up with a definite timeline for me "You will receive your baby in October 2008" or "You will receive your baby in January 2010", I think I'd be okay. Either way. It's the uncertainty and the unknown that is making me looney. If I could forget about all that, just watch time pass until that moment arrives... but that's against every instinct of my personality. I can't do that any more than I can grow a third hand, as useful as that extra limb would be. We've been logged in for nearly 7 months. In that time, I've set "worst case" scenarios - predictions of what MUST be safe to believe, but they've been systematically shattered by lengthening waits and more dire predictions. I think it would be less hurtful to avoid that exercise.
Uncertainty. I asked Steve tonight if he believes it will happen in the end, and he said "no." It's too far away, anything can happen in the meantime, it's just not believable right now. I have good days and bad, between which my faith in our outcome swings dangerously from none to frighteningly high hopes. I'm afraid today is a bad day... I just can't believe we'll get there - there's just too much to go wrong between now and then, whenever then is.
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